there are the random things like: i've started wearing glasses/contacts 24/7 (well pretty much).. finally allowed to grow out my hair (after what? 10 years?).. i've gotten my driver's license, wrecked the car.. turned eighteen...went to my very first (and last) prom... so many things.. 360 days and counting ;]

1. school

joining ib, being in a different environment.. it has been practically a year since then but i still remember after the first week of school, i walked into gurney and felt like i was back in the "old world". as if in uplands, with all the different people and whatnot, was a separate universe altogether. i guess.. to put it bluntly, being in uplands at first wasn't exactly the most comforting. it was different, and the change was in some ways what i wanted but it was definately unsettling at first. i overthought. something i shouldn't have done so much :| .. since then there have been activities that i definately would not been able to be involved in if i had chosen to do a levels instead. new experiences (for the better more so than for the worse :P ). i don't sleep in class (barely) anymore, i think i'm paying more attention to my studies now (not enough, just more so than before)... but then again the ib really demands it since part of the course relies on coursework. i think i've lost touch when it comes to locking yourself up in the room doing a last minute crash course for an upcoming exam, but i'm trying to get back to that.. especially with mocks just around the corner :) i'm gonna be a homebody :P

2. friends and other people

new environment=new people. that can never really be a bad thing honestly. although overthinking probably made me too shy for words -.- tsk .keeping in touch with old friends wasn't exactly the easiest... with some more so than others. but in the end, i think most of us turned out fine.. which still makes me ":)" . cause after all the changes that have taken place, it's always great and comforting to have people you're so at ease with. people who poke fun at you but don't mean it. looking back at old times together but at the same time, reminding ourselves not to have our eyes fixed on the rear view mirror for too long cause it's really time to grow up (in a way) and move on from what it used to be... and then there are the new friends i've made and people i've grown closer to. there are the nice people.. which is always awesome.. those i'm really grateful to even if i suck at showing it :) there are more of these than people would probably think :P sometimes i feel like i've changed in a way....changed from the very beginning of the year.. i began to overthink a lot in many aspects that i really shouldn't but i'm trying to quit that now cause it's just too difficult. it makes me way guarded, preoccupied with my own thoughts and skeptical. .. and overall just plain confused @_@ anyway, i can't read minds so it's pretty much whatever. no point trying. not gonna happen. and i'm too blur to observe and read people. :P

i see different people, i hear different things..there's this, there's that.. but that's life i suppose, you can't control it :) i think this year.. i opened my eyes a little more..or maybe someone just injected a dose cynicism in me :O haha nah, never :P it's not worth it ;] i still like the look of sunshine :]

3. him.

oh right and of course, this year, i met him ♥ :]

there'll probably be even more changes in store next year..

can't say i can/can't wait.. will see when it comes ;]

look back, ponder a little, then move on...