and i think dad's planning some kinda kerachut trip next weekend.. the hari raya one which i was actually kinda planning on using to work on stuff :/ but oh well, see how it goes :)

university applications are a.w.f.u.l. *glares* requirements are one thing, the fact that i'm still as confused as ever does not help very much either. i like to think that i've been more attentive to things this year but it's not helping. sheesh. what's the use then.. might as well just revert to being blur and "ooo fun fun~~ everything has to be funnnnn" stage. when hui yee came over to my place the other day, she said i still haven't "woken up" yet =.= hmph. really though, i was so sure that i have. well kind of. at least i'm actually trying now. albeit not very much.

i mean people have already started leaving/left already ! the horror. jing min had the whole farewell thing and has left. a couple of ex-classmates have left as well. for taiwan or wherever. wei yun's leaving soon. maybe i'm suppose to be looking out for some kinda sign =.= like to.. you know, tell me what to do or at least "guide" me to grown up-dom. (how boring right? pfft. not like i have a choice).

jing min's one year ahead, wonder if next year it'll be me :|

had a university talk kinda thing last thursday in the drama room. basically need to get things done.. now-ish. decide on where to go, work on applications, apply and all that fun stuff. -.- fun being sarcasm of course. it kinda reminded me of all those booths colleges would set up in the pcghs school hall back then. it was.. like a "college day" kinda thing i suppose. held every year around august. i (like most i believe) would attempt to collect as many freebies as i possibly could. pens, memo pads etc. there'd be all these brochures and stuff displayed on the tables and represents to help us with our Qs and "encourage us to apply". mostly local, a couple of singaporean ones among others. half weren't very interesting but it was always pretty fun skipping two periods and wandering around, flipping through all the stuff. design colleges especially would be the best cause of the art work :P Fantasizing about "what we could do" was always nice too. wondering what things would be like, pondering on the "rumours" of a particular college, talking about roommates.... :) It was pretty much the same booths for 5 years, a couple of changes here and there. i remember form 5's the best though. i was actually thinking about what i really want, what i'd need, job opportunities... @__@ even after all that thinking, i was still pretty lost though. and now, i don't think i'm that much better off. think alice in wonderland trying to pick a path to follow. it's all so confusingggggg. i've been so indecisive about the same things for the past 2-3 years at LEAST. awful really. what am i gonna do :/

and the saddest part of all.. i think, i'm too old for neverland now. but shh ;P