Sunday, September 13, 2009
{ 1:37 AM }
the path to grown up-dom
workload's a killer.and i think dad's planning some kinda kerachut trip next weekend.. the hari raya one which i was actually kinda planning on using to work on stuff :/ but oh well, see how it goes :)
university applications are a.w.f.u.l. *glares* requirements are one thing, the fact that i'm still as confused as ever does not help very much either. i like to think that i've been more attentive to things this year but it's not helping. sheesh. what's the use then.. might as well just revert to being blur and "ooo fun fun~~ everything has to be funnnnn" stage. when hui yee came over to my place the other day, she said i still haven't "woken up" yet =.= hmph. really though, i was so sure that i have. well kind of. at least i'm actually trying now. albeit not very much.
i mean people have already started leaving/left already ! the horror. jing min had the whole farewell thing and has left. a couple of ex-classmates have left as well. for taiwan or wherever. wei yun's leaving soon. maybe i'm suppose to be looking out for some kinda sign =.= like to.. you know, tell me what to do or at least "guide" me to grown up-dom. (how boring right? pfft. not like i have a choice).
jing min's one year ahead, wonder if next year it'll be me :|
had a university talk kinda thing last thursday in the drama room. basically need to get things done.. now-ish. decide on where to go, work on applications, apply and all that fun stuff. -.- fun being sarcasm of course. it kinda reminded me of all those booths colleges would set up in the pcghs school hall back then. it was.. like a "college day" kinda thing i suppose. held every year around august. i (like most i believe) would attempt to collect as many freebies as i possibly could. pens, memo pads etc. there'd be all these brochures and stuff displayed on the tables and represents to help us with our Qs and "encourage us to apply". mostly local, a couple of singaporean ones among others. half weren't very interesting but it was always pretty fun skipping two periods and wandering around, flipping through all the stuff. design colleges especially would be the best cause of the art work :P Fantasizing about "what we could do" was always nice too. wondering what things would be like, pondering on the "rumours" of a particular college, talking about roommates.... :) It was pretty much the same booths for 5 years, a couple of changes here and there. i remember form 5's the best though. i was actually thinking about what i really want, what i'd need, job opportunities... @__@ even after all that thinking, i was still pretty lost though. and now, i don't think i'm that much better off. think alice in wonderland trying to pick a path to follow. it's all so confusingggggg. i've been so indecisive about the same things for the past 2-3 years at LEAST. awful really. what am i gonna do :/
and the saddest part of all.. i think, i'm too old for neverland now. but shh ;P
Labels: life
Saturday, September 12, 2009
{ 3:00 AM }
...she was always fantastic
watched factory girl yesterday after school :]really liked it and honestly, i'm not quite sure why -- there was apparently lots of controversy and critics after the release/during the production. it's got all the elements that are fun and stuff i like (not so much of the drugs and sex but everything else).. but the ending's just so.. morbid. i mean it was just awful really. (hint: severe lack of a happy ending). of course, this is based off the real edie sedgwick, one time superstar of andy warhol (that famous modern pop artist).
"I went to a party once, and there was a palm reader there and when she looked at my hand, she just froze. And I said to her "I know. My lifeline is broken. I know I won't live past thirty. " edie sedgwick, factory girl.
and so i wonder, would you rather live fast and die young(+be remembered)
or live a long yet (boring+) typical kind of life :/
so the story is basically about a girl edie who sets off for new york. she's an heiress and super effing rich :) then at some kinda art exhibition party, she's introduced to andy warhol who asks her to star in one of his "movies". she's really just that breathtaking and fantastic. she was very.. holly golightly in the beginning. she soon begins to gain popularity and attention from the public. she becomes a.. well, star. some dark stuff come out, abuse.. her brothers' death.. minty's was particularly tragic cause he was gay = unacceptable.
**spoiler warning !**
so anyway, her popularity rises and she continues to spend as friviously and recklessly as ever. mainly splurging on clothes and dining at posh restaurants. then her former cambridge friend introduces her to billy quinn (supposedly the character was modeled after bob dylan). this is probably the coolest i've ever seen hayden christensen. i especially loved this scene, when he starts his bike so it drives off the planks, causing it to sink into the water. this needs to be watched for anyone to actually get it but i just loved it. it seemed so..so spontaneous :D
of course then things started to go downhill after edie tries to get the two (andy and billy) to get along since they can't seem to stand each other - billy thinks andy's a bloodsucker who will kill her. billy leaves her and her relationship with andy goes from bad to worse. due to mixing with the warhol group, she picks up all these bad habits such as drug addiction. and besides, to andy, she's replaceable. she becomes confused and pretty much turns into a wreck. she even goes bankrupt cause her father refuses to give her any more money. it's all quite devastating really. very tragic stuff.
in the end she's shown, in a rehab "recovering". the whole movie is basically a flashback sort of thing for her.
(now that's just the movie.)
what's supposedly her "real life story" is a bit different...
i've always liked sienna miller cause she dresses really nicely but i've never really seen alot of her shows. in this one, i thought she was just fab. :) Hayden Christensen was great too. Never thought much for him, i mean he was okay but nothing "swoon-worthy". In the movie, though he was just so cool. His actions and behaviour :P *drools* haha uber cool-ness :O
the real edie sedgewick..
who's simply gorgeous.
don't you think?
as for whether or not andy warhol really ruined edie is well.. debatable i guess :/ probably not.
supposedly he was portrayed as more villanious in the movie. in real life, edie already had issues and was mentally unstable to begin with.
then there's always the andy vs bob dylan thing :/
there was this quote on bob dylan by andy warhol,
"I liked Dylan, the way he created a brilliant new style... I even gave him one of my silver Elvis paintings in the days when he was first around. Later on, though, I got paranoid when I heard rumours that h had used the Elvis as a dart board up in the country. When I'd ask, 'Why did he do that? I'd invariable get hearsay answers like 'I hear he feels you destroyed Edie,' or 'Listen to Like a Rolling Stone - I think you're the 'diplomat on the chrome horse,' man,' I didn't know exactly what they meant by that - I never listened much to the words of songs - but I got the tenor of what people were saying - that Dylan didn't like me, that he blamed me for Edie's drugs."
so much drugs, out of control things, disappointment and whatnot :/ he bio actually looks really sad. as though she spent half her life (not a very long one even) being a wreck.
edie sedgwick was a style icon nevertheless,
even dubbed a "youthquake" by vogue :)
i think.. she seems to have been very much fab :P
"Edie was fantastic. She was always fantastic."
Labels: movies
Friday, September 4, 2009
{ 8:37 AM }
In the middle of the September
We still played out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
currently reading sundays at tiffany's thanks to jing min who is now at umm sarah lawrence :P (new york lehhhh ! and the uni that is often mentioned in the fictional world: mia from the princess diaries, the one blair begged to let her into during desperate times in the gossip girl tv series, allie from the notebook among others. real life: vera wang :O) haha xD so anyway, the guy is an "imaginary friend", who left her on her ninth birthday cause that was one of the requirements of his "job". normally the kids forget him after he leaves but she doesn't annnd for what's supposedly for the first time, he meets one of his "kids" all grown up :OOOOO :DDDD not quite cheese. but the concept is oh-so-cute. .. and i've always wondered how come i never had any imaginary friends when i was a kid -___-" then again, maybe i was just of those that "forgot" x__x haha
headed to sri ananda's after school yesterday with the pingwin, former gangster girl, gen and hui ern.. cause.. annabelle's service was awful.. (ah-hem, menu please?) .. aaaand blue reef wasn't open. the most retarded misunderstood conversations.. crazy laughter.. water splatting and umm food suicides. it was quite disgusting and non-elegant altogether -_____-
then to gurney with kylie to look for summer dresses :D this didn't quite go so well. -.- it was quite sad-denning actually. haha xD checked out lotsa cute (and pretty expensive) accesory-kinda stuff :))) like that (what i assume to be) new stall near lovely lace :]
(shall post picture later..)
then took the bus home. .. was not even rapid D: *gasp* :P quite fun. laughing while crossing dangerous streets. such rebels :P . stopped by island for important matterrrs ;] took the bus again and then had to walk back cause well.. buses don't exactly drop you right at you're doorstep now do they. concluded that walking at night is only okay in a chick-flick movie cause umm.. in a thriller/sci-fi/horror one.. chances are you are gonna die. .. or just have something bad -->really bad happen to you :))) now isn't that nice :P
paris update shall come.. eventually ;]
